"My husband wouldn't want these books to fall in the hands of just about anybody," she told us and hoped that we would be open to inheriting his collection since we shared the same passion.
"Why us?" was my first unspoken question. Almost as if she was reading my mind the woman explained that she had never shared her husband's passion and didn't know the first thing about how to find people who did... She explained that she made a prayer and left it to her husband to guide her to the people he wanted to give this inheritance to.
"It didn't take two days -- and I found your poster in one of our local shops," she told us with a great big smile. It seemed that although this woman didn't share the passion of Shamanism with her husband, she certainly believed that he was still around watching over her and showed us that she loved him greatly.
"Sure," was my response. Perhaps not very eloquent, yet she caught us by surprise. It's not every day you are approached by a perfect stranger who's willing to give you a piece of her husband's inheritance.
When we finally picked up the boxes we were quite impressed with the incredible collection of material on everything and anything connected to Shamanism. We found out that this man was not only someone who was interested in Shamanism but he was an expert in the field. Dr. F was an ethnologist who was greatly interested in the Spiritual aspects of Shamanism.
As I started looking through the books I noticed that Dr.F underlined many paragraphs and comments within the texts; and even wrote a few of his own insights. The more I read the more I had the impression I was sitting in one of this man's classes hearing his thoughts on topics that I explored as well, on my own. We definitely had similar questions and feedback. If I didn't know any better I would have said: "We were almost one and the same person."
*By the way - I too underline text that catch my attention and write comments in the columns. I've sold some of my books to students who were hungry to read some of my inner thinking on Shamanic topics. To think that Dr.F reached towards ME to share some of his exploration of the topic was quite humbling.
It took years to finally get through the 3 boxes that we inherited from Dr.F. What was wonderful is that he had taken the time through the years to write letters to authors such as Twylah Nitsh and Sun Bear. Seeing some of their letters and how they contributed to his studies was a blessing in disguise. I had the impression of suddenly being included in a private circle. I don't think that Mrs.F had any idea of the value of her husband's Shamanic library or perhaps she did? After all it ended up in my hands....
I've made the books accessible to my students through the years and every now and again I dig through them to trigger new interests or new topics of exploration. Some of the books are no longer in print and are written by people we've never heard about. For me that was one of the thrills -- to be able to connect to new faces who have contributed to the Shamanic world. Perhaps the most appreciated NEW FACE was Dr.F. His voice through the books was like having a Teacher and Elder stretching from the After Life and touching us quite literally here on Earth...
Even when I would step away from the library there was always a synchronic event that would bring me back to the books or Dr. F's notes. It never failed - I always found answers, direction, and confirmation through these boxes of treasure. I even found two dictionaries on two Aboriginal languages. What was incredible about this was that these dictionaries were put together by Catholic priests who came here on a mission to convert First Nation People to Christianity. We keep hearing awful stories about these first missionaries but obviously through exploring this dictionary we got a sense that there were Church people who were interested in Aboriginal culture, tradition and language.
I've never seen such dictionaries for sale on the market. I felt quite pleased to have two of them in my possession. I do look through them often and let myself dream words that carry so much meaning and experience. The Aboriginal language is so unlike the French or English language in so much that it depends on experience and impression. Remember Aboriginal people base their living on circular thinking...
Dr. F died almost 12 years ago and still 'til this day, it seems that he walks through my house and shares every day thoughts and feelings on Shamanism. I never met the man but I feel like I know him well. I've also had dreams of him where he formally introduced himself and asked ME questions as if I was a treasure for him as much as he was a treasure for me. It's amazing how relationships can transcend realities. There was a time in my life when I didn't honor and appreciate this gift of being able to speak to Spirit. I have to say that things have changed and in the last decade, I've come to understand that there's so much to learn from LIFE beyond the structures that we've given it.
This is one ECHO of the after life and today, I was called to share it with you.