When G and I started teaching the Medicine
Wheel and Indigenous Dreaming 15+ years ago, we used to tell our students to
“leave their Western thinking at the door.”
We had understood through our personal experience and initiations that
it was difficult to receive the most out of these old traditions if we
approached them with our Western programs and expectations. Noted: Everyone filters what they learn and
what they heal through their cultural, religious and social
indoctrination.
Yet, leaving what “we know” at the door
isn’t as easy as it may sound. Most of
us don’t even realize that programs often dictate our thoughts, feelings and
behaviours. If we don’t see it in
action, we believe we are free thinkers.
It was the practice of soul retrieval that got me to understand that it
would probably be more beneficial to ask our students to walk in with all of
what they are; but with the intent to become aware of their programs. Through exploring the notion of “personal
Medicine Wheels” we were able to acknowledge that wounds, trauma, reactions as
well as healing are interwoven with the notion of indoctrination. You can’t separate Shamanism from Western
living: One evolved from the other.
25+ years ago, when I chose to walk a
shamanistic path, I was fresh out of University and felt like I didn’t quite
fit in the Western World. I wasn’t a
scientist, an environmental engineer or even a schoolteacher like many of my
friends. I didn’t feel called as a
member of the youth of the ‘80’s (the future politicians and entrepreneurs
etc…) to predict the future and attempt to change it. I was more interested in finding a space to
explore all of me, not just what my parents and society approved of. I felt like there was more to the World than
what we perceived it to be through programs, expectations and youthful
immaturity. I wanted experience and
growth.
I wanted to step out of boxes: Mine, and
those imposed on me.
When you begin to explore ancestral stories
(what people call past lives), you learn that many of us have collected
lifetimes of programs and expectations. They could be our own (belief of
reincarnation) or they could be burdens of sorts handed down to us by our
ancestors. DNA also shows us that we are
connected to the human specie and that it is hence, possible to be in tune with
the stories of others past, present and future through biology.
In fact on a daily basis we trigger
countless memories and find ourselves reliving emotions, thoughts, fears and
anxiety that could be judged as irrelevant to the Western person that we have
come to believe “we are.” Yet, in
Shamanism, nothing is irrelevant. The
notion of “soul retrieval” explores the concept of wholeness by bringing to
consciousness every little detail; which creates our personal story, and finding
a way to integrate them so that closure and resolution can be reached.
Shamanism made sense to me because it
considered nature (my natural, cosmic and human environment) and the
stars. Where the Church often talked
about “Heaven and Earth;” Shamanism empirically considered them as daily
influences in human life. Whether you
are at work, at home with the kids, or on a date with your boyfriend or
girlfriend there’s always natural and cosmological influences at play. It is impossible for anyone (knowledgeable or
not of Shamanism) to separate Shamanism from their daily living.
In the last decade of teaching Shamanism,
the Medicine Wheel and Indigenous Dreaming I’ve noticed more resistance and
intolerance to these ancient traditions than ever before. I have some theories…. Returning to Shamanism
in many cases implies having to face the denial and resistance from many of the
characters we’ve accumulated to our story (our mates, our family members,
friends etc…) through time. It means
doing the work and retrieving those parts of us that have been lost. It also means facing programs and changing
them. In most cases, it seems simpler
to continue living life as Westerners than to incorporate Shamanism to it.
For me it was clear from the start, I wanted
to step away from inconsistencies and Shamanism offered me the opportunity to
do so. What was also important to me was
the notion of “walking my talk”. It
seemed I spent too much time suffocating under the idea of having to fit and
having to please others. I felt like I
was loosing my way just by following …
Shamanism gave me access to the Medicine Wheel; which in turn allowed me
to adopt functional, sacred and healthy attitudes and behaviours. I found that these attitudes brought clarity,
consciousness and wisdom to my life.
I consider myself more “shamanistic” than “western”
these days because Shamanism permeates all of what I am and do. Yet, I still have to be in Western circles
and cross the path of Westerners who have no idea of my shamanistic ways. I don’t find that it demands a shift from
me. I am who I am in all circles.
To those who find that they can’t bring
Shamanism and their Western reality together, I would suggest that they revisit
the topic…. In most cases it’s about indoctrination
and how it serve you…. Or not!
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